To: A Friend
That sucks about [redacted]. It's possible it's all happening for a reason, you know? I mean, it's funny, but sometimes I think even the worst of things happen for a reason. I always think, I got Ryan -- my best friend from Interlochen, my soulmatey thing -- I earned Ryan for dealing with my Dad's death with as much grace as I did, and I am so blessed to've gotten Ryan. And it wasn't just my Dad's death, but like, an awkward adolescence, my Mom coming out, feeling like I was behind everyone in so many ways, and then on top of that my Mom being crazy and stuff. And now, I feel like I'm getting all of these amazing things, like, extras, like my blog you know, has been so great, and Cait, also, and you, also, and Carly, and this new job, and maybe getting close to stability with things, you know, and like, everyone, all my friends, and [redacted] is like, getting better finally, back to who she was ... I feel like everything is finally working out for me now ... like this is what I get for having endured everything this summer ... and to fixing a lot of it.
But this is just to say that I think the future is only there eventually, but it is there. And it might be brighter.
This is like, the most insane email I have ever sent in my life. What the f? These aren't my lines. My lines are like: [redacted], dude, that sucks about [redacted]. Life is hard, I guess, even when it should be easy. Hope she's paving the way for your reunion with [redacted star crush].
Yeah? Yeah. That'd be more like me.
10.29.2007, 5 P.M.
From: Mr. [redacted boss]
I heard that you have been quite successful selling the furniture and I wanted you to know how much I appreciate your efforts ... I hope you don't mind not coming to the office this week, I know it's a tremendous inconvenience leaving your schedule so up in the air, but since I will not be there and you don't work for the firm, it doesn't make much sense for you to go and sit there with nothing to do.
I hope you don't mind but I read some of your blog last night and I have to admit, I am quite impressed. I don't know what I was expecting, but it wasn't at all what I thought it was going to be, you have an enormous amount of talent and I think you are going to go far in this world. Although I must tell you that someday I will tell you why affirmative action does a disservice to people of all ethnicities.
To: Mr. [redacted]
Hi Mr. [redacted],
I apologize for writing you while you are away -- but I'm becoming increasingly alarmed that everything is not well -- I haven't heard from [redacted relative], [redacted assistant], [redacted assistant] or [redacted assistant] since Monday night and I know this is highly unusual for your family and their people, even during difficult times. I'm hoping everyone is okay. I have people who've paid me for furniture they are hoping to pick up today or have delivered this week and I don't know what to tell them [NOTE: I have no access to the items myself], also there was no deposit made yesterday, so I'm not certain how to proceed in terms of my own finances right now, or what to do next when the eBay people don't receive furniture they've paid for. [NOTE: There are also items being donated to those in need, arranged by me, and people expecting these items, I have no access to them myself.]
But mostly I am just concerned that something terrible is happening. Please let me know if you know anything, or have heard from anyone. I am really worried and confused.
10. 31. 2007, 12:51 P.M.
From: Mr. [THE SAME redacted boss, yes, the same one from prior email.]
It was my understanding that a letter of termination was sent to you yesterday.
One of my colleagues found your website and read the content. I don't know why my daughter or you thought that it would be acceptable for you to represent me and my name, knowing what kind of information you had on the internet. What you choose to make public about your life is your choice, and who I choose to have represent me is my choice.
I simply cannot have someone who openly discusses drug use, illegal activities, their sexual experiences and encounters, and everything else you write about working for me. When I was told you wrote about your life I thought that meant something entirely different.
That I didn't research this myself is my fault entirely, but there is no way I can have you in my work environment.
I wish you all the best and I hope that this will be our last communication as there is really nothing more to say.
10.31.2007, 2:45 P.M.
To: Mr. [redacted]
I didn't receive that letter, I've been worried sick about you and the family and have been extremely concerned for everyone's well being. I have people who have paid me on ebay for furniture that they are now expecting to receive and that they have paid me for via paypal. I will lose my ebay account, and subsequently my paypal account and bank account, if I don't complete these transactions. Please let me know how to proceed.
Obviously this puts me in an extremely tough spot -- as you know. It's hard for me to trust people, but [redacted connection] is such an amazing person [NOTE: And totes still IS an amazing person, obvs, even though you aren't, asshat] and everything you've done for me has been so kind, I allowed myself to trust. But I don't know what to say to any of these accusations. I never would've put you or your family out there. I'm a good person, I am loyal and full of follow-through, commitment, and kindness. I try to put positive and fair energy into the world. I want to help others and find common ground for communication and understanding, and I often do this through great creative liberties, fictionalization, humor, and, when appropriate, brutal honesty. I don't even know what you are referring to with your accusations.
I am interested to discover what it is that has changed since Monday, when you told me that you were "quite impressed" with my blog and feel i have an "enormous amount of talent." I know you are under a lot of stress right now and I understand how that goes.
In any event ...
I only ask that, from one professional to a former associate, that you enable the completion of the furniture transactions which I began under the false impression that I could trust everyone on your end to follow through. I hope this is still the case. If not, then I suppose that there were false impressions on both sides regarding the content of one another's character.
Marie Lyn Bernard